Friends

Woke up this morning
Felt as dreadful as last night
Still wep when thinking about the case
Sent Peggy & Ryan a short message
Mentioned that I would like to quit
Got Peggy's call immediately
She suggested me to confront my thoughts with Stephen
All of a sudden she became my coach
So thankful to have a friend like this
She was a colleague of mine
But she is also a good, caring friend

Did FYP in school
Finished researching
Left the library to call Chanice
To thank her to suggest me to use a better database for research
Mentioned to her about my drawback in work
She suggested me to confront to my boss
And not to accept things that I were uncomfortable with
She was also a coach of mine
So thankful to have a friend like this
She was a classmate of mine
We seldom see each other
But she is really a good, caring friend

Confronted to Stephen via text message
He has not yet replied
(instead of not replying i hope)
I have done what I should
And now I wait for his feedback
No matter if it was a good or bad one
I would not consider resignation
As long as he responds in a week
I think I feel much stronger
And I think I am being mature & professional this time
At least I have stepped up to express myself
Instead of tolerenting everything

Waited for Jane for dinner & movie
Talked with her about the case as well
Actually she knew already
But she is willing to listen for so many times
She gave me suggestions as well
As me not to think too much
And let go of the negative feelings
So thankful to have a friend like this
She is a colleague of mine
But also a good, caring friend

Read a passage from Kam Yuk on facebook
Quite a nice passage:

我們不能時時在身邊

好像電話簡訊也沒有了

我們不能第一時間分享彼此的快樂與不快樂

好像變的冷漠沉默了

我們不能再一起去吃飯一起說說笑笑

好像走出彼此的世界了

我們不能一起考試一起努力一起奮鬥

好像現在已經完全脫離過去了

我們不再有小矛盾也不再笑的那麼肆無忌憚

好像身邊少了一些什麼但也不那麼重要了

我們不能一起犯錯一起哭

好像那只屬於過去的不成熟

好像青蔥歲月只留下斑駁的記憶

我們都有了新的生活

新的環境 新的朋友

我們都在面對新的事

新的人陪在我們身邊

分享著我們的喜怒哀樂

有時候也會想起

想起曾經的我們

有時候一個小物品就會勾起一大串一大串的回憶

關於你

關於我們

甚至連那一句話都記得清楚

當時的笑當時的鬧

時間改變了什麼

其實什麼都沒有

時間讓我們從過去到現在

沖淡的是回憶 帶不走的也是回憶

親愛的你們

感激遇到你

陪我走過那一段長長的路

那時的我

幼稚不成熟

那時的我

遇到一個又一個坎

是你們陪我成長

沒有丟下我

如今

大家都在不同的地方

不同的環境

漸漸地

漸漸地

不再聯繫

但網誌的每一次更新

相簿的每一次更改

狀態的每一個變動

都牽動著彼此的心

因為這樣

我就知道

遠方的你們

好或不好

快樂或不快樂

原諒

不能時刻陪伴

原諒

那份感情不再濃烈

原諒

或許偶爾想起會感覺孤單

如果有一天

我們再遇見

朋友們

好哥們

好姐們

同桌的你

那當初的一切不會變

Feeling similar to the situation between Rice, Pinky & I?
NO, DEFINITELY NOT
Our situation cannot be describe in such a beautiful manner
It is distroted
They were my best friends
We were so close before
We meet each other everyweek
For more than once
But when friendship fades
They are nothing
Just 2 oridinary people in life
I dont hate them
They are just making their choices
But I cannot devote into the relationship any more
Simply because it hurts

People like Chanice, Carrie, Emily
Though they are not really close with me
Though we will not see each other once a week
They care about me
They bear me in their minds

As for my closest best friends?
They abandone me
I will not hear from them
Not until they post photos of they & my other friends finishing an activity
No calls, no messages, no msn from them
And even if I tried to contact
They would not respond

Though Ms Life Coach is a good one
She was wrong about 1 thing
She asked me how many time am I willing to devote on my friends when I am so into working
She assumed that I were not devoted
But in reality
It was my best friends
whol had chosen not to devote into the friendship any more
I am not the one who quit
They are
I quit now
Just because it hurts too much

I do not know if one day Ryan, Peggy, Jane Chanice, Carrie & Emily would fade away from my life
I am happy to have them in my life
But anyone can fade away from the others life
We will never know until the point of no turing back has been passed