After this Jan
I had not wrote anything in this blog
Not because all nightmares had ended
But simply because I was too buzy
With regards to the wild imagination of resigning
Well, I had made it a reality
Submitted a cheque, a hand-written resignation letter with tears messing with every single word
Returned the keys to the empty office that I love the most
Left a lot of tears marks on my desk and thats all
For details about why resigning
I need not to write down
Simply because I will never forget
And thats really all - for the first half of the story
The second part is that we had long chat in a park with Jane & Stephen
And I stayed
After that, it was the Chinese New Year
Realizing that I need to let go of the sales figures
Because it was my boss who said I shoudl leave the available stock to the website team
- They have margin, let them sell, its not a tough decision at all
On the first day of 2011 ( Chinese Calendar), USD1500 is what I got
After the 3-day holiday
Returned, felt different
After a week, got caught by Stephen
Had a serious chat in the corridor
"Can you start selling without the items being replenished?"
"The cash flow is tight"
Hes really worry, I can tell
I never know how to read much facial expressions
But this time I know
Becasue he is finally having ebay team in his mind
Instead of feeling shock
I had a bliss of happiness
e bay team is finally in his mind
Start pushing sales
After a few days
Received a mail from Stepehn
He CC to Calvin as well
I will never forget
How he said that he did not know if the company can surve March
Also the crazy sales target he passed me
Reach USD7000 on / before 7th March
Or reach USD90000 on / before the end of March
My first thought was - our sales was not even that high in the peak season
My seconf thought was - I need to make this work
My third thought was - I could not do both the FYP & this task well, I would withdrawn my FYP for the company's sake
Again, thats all
I had start my days
Following my instincts to do the best that I could
I knew that the 2 girls in SZ could not help me
They could not reach my standard
I knew Janet in HK could not help me
She was out of fuel
I only had myself and my sleeping hours
Leaving SZ office at arounf 8pm
Returned HK at around 9.30pm
Take a shower, had a quick meal
Turn on my notebook at 10pm sharp
Sleep at around 2-3am had become my shedule in the coming months
On 7th March, I could not reached the USD 7000 target
And on the end of March, I could not reach USD 9000
But with no help I had made a huge improvement
This is one of the times in life that I am not insecure
And one Sat morning
I woke up early working
Sent out the Sales Summary
Stephen replied immediately
Asking me to revise the table in order to show the shipping as well
I did it immediately
I had exceeded USD6000
I bursted into tears in bed
That was the middle of March
And then, Ken had more and more influences in the company
The mighty general manager
Hosting awful long meeting every fucking Wed
The only aim of the meeting is to stab each others back?
Or maybe directly slap each others face
Either way - "Dont waste my time on this, I still have a whole bunch of listing to tune"
That was my only thought
And then, Janet reisgned
And and then, Calvin held her for another 3 months
And and and then, Ken hosted the 3-month incentive program
And and and and then, the program made me sick
And and and and and then, I escaped to Phuket, a nice trip alone that I will never forget
And and and and and and then, I had reached USD10000 per day
And and and and and and and then, Janet was finally gone
And and and and and and and and then, Ryan was gone too
And and and and and and and and and then, Peggy was gone as well
And and and and and and and and and and now, the 2011 peak season had just began
And finally, I will be the next to go
After the peak season
I love my work
But the more I love it
The more it becomes the main source of my pain, my insecurity, my fountain of tears
I want to put an end to all these
I do not want to make tearing up my greatest talent
