Friday

To me, Friday is the best day in a week

Not even Sat & Sun can compare with Friday

I always love Friday

But I have cried for the last 3 Fridays

Friday is no longer the way it was

Or

It s just me who had changed



Friday

For the past 3 Fridays, i have cried

Not at home in bed

Not at home during the shower

I cried in the office when most people were gone

And the craziest thing today is - I have been weeping before people were off



I cried on the first Friday

Because Stephen asked me to share a new staff that I had with Meg

Not share to be exact

But to allocate to her



I cried on the second Friday

Because, well also because of Stephen

Who had started a rather headaching topic without ending it

Gone himself, leaving me behind with a troubled mind



I cried on today, on the third Friday

Because , again of Stephen

Who had kicked me out of the wholesale team

And allocated me to handle new items as product team



The wholesale business or sector

Was developed by me

Not to be proud, I was just the one who came across to set up the team

It was in July 2009 when I hired my second staff -Donald Wong

He was not given the opportunity to handle wholesale order until March 2010

Now in Nov 2010

The Peak Season of the year

I was officially kicked out of the team and Donald would be in charge



When I first read Donald's resume, I thought - HE IS THE ONE

His performance was not bad, but never perfect of course

He has good academic background

I suppose both my bosses kind of like him



When he was first hired

He had the perfect title - Associate Account Manager

While I - his supervisor was - Customer Service Specialist

When I first handled / set up the wholesale team

There were nothing

Not even extra resources

I once did the packing of a 1000-piece on my own

Now, there is an incentive program

And I was being kicked out

I was not happy

Kind of angry to be honest

Well, maybe soon or later, Donald will be paid more than me

He has the incentive program

And he can expand his sales by hiring more staff

All sharing commission



I was unhappy

Not because of $$

But why kicking me out from sth I set up on my own

I gave birth to the team

I still believe



I always want to be a sales person

Because I had fear & doubts

That boosting sales might be a weakness of mine

So I longed for such opportunity

And would like to prove myself wrong



The sales results of ebay proved that I could not really boost sales

And now

Wholesale is also gone

What's left? - I still have Product Development

Something that I never intend to head towards



I suppose I was not under Meg

But keep being pushed by her for new items

Its not her problem

Its just not what I like to do

Remember the time when Stephen first asked / assigned / pushed / forced me to do product development

I ran away from the office in the afternoon

Being so reasonably childish

But it turns out that I am doing product development now


I do not always want to do "tidy up" tasks all the time

I had been in Customer Service Team,

Something similar to the so call "Quality Assurance Team"

Now Product Team

Responsible for activating new items and inactivating old items

I want to develop myself to become the "starter" or "pioneer" too...

Instead of tidying up the other's mess...

When will my dreadful Fridays end?